Monday, December 17, 2012

Ketamine And Versed Along With Propofol

Over at nurse-anesthesia I'm seeing more and more about adding yet one more freakout drug into the anesthesia mix called Ketamine.  This is called 'Special K' on the street.  Its claim to fame is lifelike hallucinations and disassociation.  Disassociation is also a very bad mental disorder (depersonalization disorder) that these medical people want to chemically induce, just like the chemical Alzheimer's that they induce with Versed.  (also can be described by another dissociative disorder called dissociative amnesia)

Propofol isn't good enough for our medical workers.  They must "butter us up" with Versed and then add Ketamine to the mix.  FOR WHAT?  This makes their job easier, that's what.  They don't want to deal with us or manage our pain.  They want to screw up our brain for a while (or maybe forever) just so they can brag to one another how wonderful they are.  Brag about how easy it is for them to work with a brain dead patient.  What do they care what we want?  I have not seen one single thing about whether their 'cocktail' is good for the PATIENT.  THESE PEOPLE DO NOT REFER TO PATIENT SATISFACTION!

Isn't it bad enough that we need our physical body cut open etc. without having to have our brain destroyed as well?  Think of how terrible it is to have our anesthetists create havoc within our brains that we need to heal as an adjunct to having to heal our body!  Has anybody explained to them how hard it is to heal physically if our brains have been tampered with?  I know *I* didn't heal well after general anesthetic, but healed up fast after a nerve block only in my numerous surgeries.

Most people would be shocked at the cavalier disregard for our brain function by our so-called caregivers.  I don't think most people would be sanguine about having medical professionals 'experimenting' with dangerous street drugs, just so we can have a simple (or not so simple) medical procedure. 

Legal Drugs and Lethal Violence

Some people just don't need drugs.  It is absolutely UNBELIEVABLE how much our medical workers want to drug us.  This blog is about just one of them, Versed, a benzo, but there are a lot of other drugs which cause problems for people.  Here's a video about some others...

Drugs The Link Between Psychiatric Drugs and Nearly All Recent Mass-Shootings

Isn't it amazing that nearly every single one of the school shooters was on some kind of LEGAL drug.  You know, the ones that medical folks think are good for us.  I myself tried Chantix for my nicotine addiction and almost immediately grew depressed and suicidal.  I guess killing yourself pretty much cures smoking!  Ya think?  But is this the 'cure' that I had in mind?  Not quite.

When I was assaulted with Versed, I grew murderously angry.  Ask any of my nurses if they want me to be given Versed again.  The whole time that my crna Aaron was claiming I was oh so very relaxed, I was absolutely furious.  I remain angry to this day.  His administration of Versed to make his job easier and to bypass my rights was the culprit.  How many times do I have to repeat that I WILL attack anybody who gives me this drug again.  I know how I felt while under the influence of Versed, and I remember what I wanted to do.  (no amnesia)  I won't even TRY to control the drug induced rage next time!  It's too hard.  I used up all my self control the first time Versed happened to me.  There is no more confusion about what is going on when I suddenly can't speak and want to obey.  The minute either of those two things happens to me next time, I will react.  Remember that one of the effects of Versed is a loss of inhibition. 

Will the newspaper report that I went on an inexplicable murderous rampage, or will they tell everybody that a potent benzodiazepine called Versed caused me to go out of control?  Same with all these school shootings.  Almost every single one of these kids is on some kind of brain melting chemical.  I'm sorry but all this 'gun control' stuff won't do a damn thing unless and until we can convince the FDA and all those doctors who routinely prescribe what I call 'murder pills' to stop doing that. 

In my case, let's start with not using Versed.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

"Practising" On Drugged Patients

I have droned on and on about how medical people use us a a living cadaver.  I find it shocking and completely unethical, not to mention AGAINST THE LAW!  I don't know very many people who want some apprentice working on them, especially if they do it in a sneaky way.  Informed consent is supposed to be INFORMED, but it almost never is.  Here's an article that a friend sent me...

Doctors in training taught to physically violate unconscious patients Learn more: ht

Yes, once again it's from that bastion of bigotry over at nurse-anesthesia.  There are a couple of posts from nurses that are on our side, but for the most part these cretins have zero problems with using us as their lab rats.  They may have more feelings towards the rats because they are so cute...  One person goes so far as to say that we shouldn't go to a 'teaching hospital' if we don't want to be gang raped and fondled by all and sundry, in full view of anybody who wants to look.  Sorry folks but this attitude smacks of sociopathic behavior.  We patients are not there for your edification and convenience.  How the Hell would we know that the place is a teaching hospital and that they will USE US for their own selfish wishes?  Besides which aren't there trainees at ALL hospitals?  Just asking! 

Patients, especially those of us who have moral character would probably never stoop to the kind of behavior exhibited by our medical workers.  Naturally since we ourselves would never act like this, we don't suspect others of behaving in such a diabolical way!  We need fair warning of this kind of behavior from our medical workers.  Any training workshops being undertaken upon our physical and mental being needs to have the full knowledge and CONSENT of the patient. 

Is there a neon sign out front that says "Beware, Teaching Hospital'?  Is there one single sentence in our informed consent that states that "This is a teaching hospital and you will be subjected to being used as a training device for NUMEROUS student lackeys"?  (of course it won't be an exact duplicate of my sentencer here, lol)  Is there anything in the verbiage that gives SPECIFIC consent for this kind of activity?  No of course not.  NOBODY WOULD WANT THIS!  That being said, how dishonest is it to conceal the facts from the hapless patient?  An informed consent should be exactly that.  Just because we may be unaware of things going on around us, doesn't mean that you people have carte blanche to do things to us that, if aware, we would take exception to! 

In these days of total surveillance, I hope that soon we patients can request a video of our procedure.  SOMEBODY needs to yank on the reins of medical people as they are in full runaway mode. 

A Reader's Story: Disrespect and Lies

1. I asked my surgeon 3 weeks before the surgery if I could have the Foley catheter placed while I was awake- he agreed.

2. On the day of my surgery, I asked him again- he agreed.

3. I asked the OR nurses if I could have the cath placed while awake- they all agreed, and one said she'd be the one to do it- it was fine with her.

4. The anesthesiologist was very snappy with me because I asked if I could keep my tongue jewelry in. She bossed me very rudely " Take it out now!" and the nurse explained that I wanted to keep it in until the very LAST possible moment (because tongue piercings can close very quickly). She said "The tongue ring comes out NOW!"

5. When the anesthesiologist said "I'll go get the goodies" and left the OR Prep room to get medication, another nurse asked me if I understood that one of the medications they would issue would cause amnesia- I asked if they could hold off on all medications until the catheter was placed- that I wanted to remember it. Every nurse in the room agreed. However, no one explained to me AT THAT TIME, that the medication would cause RETROGRADE amnesia. I don't even know if this is true.

6. When the anesethesiologist came back, the other nurses told her that I'd like to hold off on all medication until after the catheter was in. She walked behind me and started fiddling around with "something", as she rudely agreed to wait on the meds. She said in a way that frightened me "That is very unusual". I asked her if I had upset her and she said "No! Let's go! Let's do this!" very rudely.

7. I was immediately wheeled out of the room. Very quickly I started getting drowsy. I don't remember the trip to the OR. I have short snippets of memory- the feeling of being wheeled, waking up with my gown up and my legs open, the pain of the catheter insertion. I remember talking at times throughout this duration- trying to say that I shouldn't be feeling sleepy yet, asking why I was feeling drowsy. However, I could not see straight, just bodies moving to the right of me and at my head, arms reaching toward me, people grabbing my legs etc. I kept drifting in and out of conciousness, I don't recall anyone answering my questions and my last memory is rolling my head to the right and giving up.

8. The next thing I remember is waking up (if you could call it that) in recovery, shivering, trying to sit up and talk. There were people talking around me, removing the EKG wires from my chest etc. I was trying to ask questions, and once again, I don't recall anyone responding to me.

9. They wheeled me to a regular hospital room. When I was able to see the clock, I noted the time, and asked for my husband who was in the waiting room. The nurse came back a while later and said that my husband was not in the waiting room. I began to cry for the next hour, confused and drowsy. Two more nurses who noticed said they'd try to find him. Finally he came in an hour or an hour and a half later and said he'd been in the waiting room the entire time-asking about me at the desk. It turns out that they just didn't have my paperwork there yet, so my husbands name was never on the "To Page" list.

10. My surgeon didn't see me for 2 more days. I asked him why I wasn't awake for the cath insertion and he said that I was. He said he was there, I was awake, and talking. As the days go by, I realize that I am completely disappointed in my surgeon-who I really liked. I'm now realizing that he lied to me as well. He told me that the Versed caused retrograde amnesia-implying that the drug wasn't administered until after the cath insertion, and I just didn't remember it because the amnesia was RETROGRADE. This is an obvious lie, as I REMEMBER fighting sleep, trying to talk, not being able to see straight, and waking up periodically during my move to the OR and the cath insertion. Why would I have an immediate realization that I was getting sleepy, if I wasn't even drugged yet?!

11. I requested the operative report, which stated that I was placed in a lateral decubitous with low lithotomy position. I am distressed by this as I did not know my legs would be open. I also did not know that they would "prep" my perenium before surgery.

12. My surgeon failed to tell me that he DEFINATELY WOULD be performing a cystoscopy (a camera up the urethra to view the bladder). I signed a paper that gave consent to perform one- but as I signed it, my surgeon told me that he would only do one in the event that he could not place the stent through the the incisions "sometimes it's difficult that way". According to the operative report, he WAS able to place the stent through the incisions. He performed the cystoscopy to check the position of the stent after everything else was done. Why then, did he omit the fact that he would check the stent that way? Why do doctors try to hide what they do? I signed the freakin consent...why then not inform me about things happening TO me?!
As you can tell this reader is not only unhappy with Versed, but also the same litany as I and others have expressed about the total and absolute disrespect for not only the patient but the law as well.  I wonder what it will take to get these medical people under control!  They are supposed to be trained personnel at OUR disposal!  Why are we being subjected to this type of treatment?  It puzzles me as these are NOT minimum wage workers who could understandably be resentful.  Medical minions whole job is about customer service.  IT'S A SERVICE INDUSTRY!  How did it happen that we patients are now the enemy, to be treated like dirt?  These people are bankrupting the entire country so that they can have their lavish lifestyle!  Why can't we be treated with respect, dignity and within the parameters we place on them?  Why can't we expect that medical workers will FOLLOW THE LAW?  This is a chilling story about how much disdain medical people have for the very people they are (over)paid to serve.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Tammy Wynette Dead From VERSED?

I have no explanation why I haven't picked up on this tidbit in all this time...  I was watching a biography on Tammy Wynette this morning and Versed was mentioned as the probable cause of Tammy's death.  Tammy's own daughter is a nurse and believes that the Versed is the reason for Tammy's death.  She also clarifies that she is not allowed to inject Versed into any of her patients.  She also claims that Tammy's husband, George Richey, was regularly injecting Versed into the i.v. that was permanently placed into her.  Tammy's husband was not a nurse, nor was he authorized to inject this poison. 

If you google Tammy/Versed you will find hours of reading, and many denials that Versed could have been the culprit.  Because Tammy needed other painkiller drugs as well as the illegal injections of Versed, there is plausible deniability that Versed caused her death.  However, her daughter the nurse understands what Versed is...  AND she feels that Versed WAS the cause of her mother's death.

Here's a quote from here; What did tammy wynette die from  "Versed is a very dangerous drug and should only be administered in a hospital setting. George Richey denied being told that Versed was a dangerous drug."
Of course nobody said anything about Versed being a dangerous drug!  Medical people deny it to this day, even after the MJ debacle.  I wonder if Versed had anything to do with the tragedy of Anna Nicole and her son?  Anything to do with Versed seems to be hushed up.  Versed/Midazolam is a wonderful, benign, beneficial, side effect free drug, right?  Don't you dare say anything against it! 

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Hernia Repair and Versed (again)

Oddly I have found several references to hernia repairs and Versed recently.  Tim from had his experience with Versed and created the premier site for people to vent about their Versed experiences.  In November I found (and wrote about) a man who went in for a hernia repair and was killed by his anesthesia.  You can find it here No Midazolam: Death From Anesthesia  From the sparse details, I submit that the drug used was Midazolam, but as it wasn't NAMED, I can only extrapolate from what IS there, that Versed was the culprit.  You have to draw your own conclusions on that!  Now I find this one from here; 

Midazolam Sedation Is Not ALWAYS Safe - Forum Thread Page 3  Here's a copy of the post;

Versed Sneaked Into Hernia Operation

posted by Ross on 07 Dec 2012 at 9:20 am
On November 4, 2012, I had hernia surgery at a Prince William County ambulatory center. Neither the surgeon nor the anesthesiologist mentioned beforehand their intention to use Versed, nor did I ask for or need a sedative. They told me about the Versed only after administering it, and then only because I asked persistent questions about what they had done.

Within three hours of being released by the center, I started experiencing severe nausea. This led to vomiting and heaving, which aggregated he pain. By 8 pm that evening, my girlfriend, an RN, arrived back from out of town, took one look, and hustled me to the ER. It took over five hours for them to control the nausea and pain. Even after they released me, I had significant problems into the next day.

Over the next three days, I experienced periodic nausea combined with confusion, memory loss, and irritability. I wrote a lengthy protest to the hospital over their use of Versed. They have not yet chosen to respond. In general, I do not have allergic reactions to anything. Versed appears to be the exception. Making it worse, the center's anesthesiologist has insisted that it has no side-effects, which is simply a lie. And it had no legitimate medical role in the surgery. I've had surgery before without such things and have fared far better.

The deception practiced by the Prince William doctors in this case was reprehensible. They want trust yet turn around and make moves that seem medically subversive at best.
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Here an excerpt which I particularly like....  "Over the next three days, I experienced periodic nausea combined with confusion, memory loss, and irritability. I wrote a lengthy protest to the hospital over their use of Versed. They have not yet chosen to respond. In general, I do not have allergic reactions to anything. Versed appears to be the exception. Making it worse, the center's anesthesiologist has insisted that it has no side-effects, which is simply a lie. And it had no legitimate medical role in the surgery. I've had surgery before without such things and have fared far better.

The deception practiced by the Prince William doctors in this case was reprehensible. They want trust yet turn around and make moves that seem medically subversive at best."

The above are the last two paragraphs in the piece.  "...the center's anesthesiologist has insisted that it (Versed) has no side-effects, which is simply a lie."  Of course it's a lie.  These anesthetists know perfectly well that THEIR  drug of choice (not the patients choice by any means) causes major problems for a large sub-set of patients.  These side effects are very well documented, but are deliberately minimized or denied by medical workers because it makes their job easier and/or more fun.  There is AMPLE PROOF of this.

"And it (Versed) had no legitimate medical role in the surgery."  Absolutely, categorically, indubitably true.  (The emphasis is mine.) 

The very last paragraph sums it up PERFECTLY, don't you agree?  "reprehensible" and "subversive" are words which are very descriptive of what the actions of the medical minions are.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Do You Need That Test?

From time to time I get questioned about my medical credentials.  The writers opine that *I* have no right to point out anything in regards to big medicine because I lack the training necessary to have an opinion of my own....  COMMON SENSE and the ability to extrapolate from the facts at hand do not need any specific medical training. 

I have been saying that all these colonoscopies as a routine 'preventative' screening are a waste of time and money.  Statistically you are MORE likely to be harmed by the test itself!  (Especially when performed with the chemical Alzheimer's drug, Versed.)  This test is not without risk, risk which is not necessary.  I'm talking about routine colonoscopies where there is no reason to have them, as in asymptomatic people. 

I have been saying that having a mammogram every year is, or at least could be, putting yourself at greater risk due to bathing sensitive breast tissue with radiation for no apparent reason.  Again I'm talking about asymptomatic women!  How often do the 'find' something that 'needs' surgery, biopsies and the like on healthy women? 

I believe that not only are the tests themselves bad for most of us, but that they only lead to more and more medical intervention.  Kinda like a witch hunt leads to more and more witches being uncovered.  If you let medical people poke around in your body, they will find reasons why you need more medical treatment.  You may feel perfectly well and have no problems whatsoever, but I can guarantee that medical people will find reasons to extract more money from you for 'necessary' treatments.  It's the nature of the beast.  They don't make much money from well people, and need you to be sick.  (You see it all the time with Versed/Midazolam.  They seek any behavior which they can define as 'anxious' so that they can give you an expensive and detrimental drug allegedly to 'help' you.)

Anyway, for those people who feel that an MD needs to present the theories that I profess, here you are. 

General Health Checkups and Medical Screening Tests – Do You Really Need Them? by Joseph Mercola

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Jumpin' Jack Flash and Versed/Midazolam

There's an old movie, a classic really, called "Jumpin' Jack Flash" starring Whoopi Goldberg as an accidental spy.  It was made around 1986 or so just when Versed/Midazolam was coming into favor.  I watched it again today and discovered something really sinister...  It's an unfortunate side effect of my Versed experience that I'm hyper vigilant about these things. 

There's a part of the story line in "Jumpin' Jack Flash" that appears to include a drug exactly like Versed...  The same dis inhibition, the babbling on about anything and everything AND complete amnesia about events which transpired.  I had never noticed this before.  For those of you who have never watched the movie here's how it went.  Ominously a spy type injected Whoopi with a drug which was supposed to be a 'truth serum.'  Whoopi escapes his clutches and begins an adventure which includes telling people what she really thinks of them, snatching a toupee off of her bosses head and being insufferably rude and truthful to others.  Then, when one of the 'victims' of Whoopi's vitriol asks her about it, Whoopi claims to not remember a word of it.  Nothing.

INSTANTLY warning bells went off in my head.  OMG Whoopi's character was shot up with something like Versed (or it was Versed) which left her walking, talking and acting the fool, with zero memory for the duration of the drug.  Wow.  This is a comedy movie and here we have the worst drug ever devised by anti-social misanthropes in big pharma labs featured and we are all laughing.  It's not so funny to me now. 

When I first saw the movie I assumed that there was no drug such as they injected her with.  It's a comedy right, pure Hollywood?  Versed is such a tightly held secret that I didn't know about it until it was shot into me against my will 20 years later.  Even then I seriously HAD NO IDEA the depths of depravity our medical minions had sunk to in regard to this poison.  I didn't find out the whole truth about Versed until AFTERWARDS when the lawsuit mitigation nurse, called a "patient relations" nurse, (how's that for duplicity?) informed me of the whole truth about the date rape drug "Vitamin V."  You know, the simple muscle relaxant that my crna claimed.  I should have been paying more attention to some dumb comedy movie shouldn't I? 

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Versed NOT Being Used?

I was delighted to come across this recent discussion here;  Midazolam for induction: yes or no? | Anesthesiology | Student Doctor Network  More and more it seems that Versed/Midazolam use is being curtailed by the MOST educated among us.  Thanks very much to all the doctors and student doctors who are writing on the above link against indiscriminate Versed use.  Of course now that I'm calling attention to their discussion, I'm sure they can expect the 'nurses' to go over there and attack them.  Sorry about that in advance.

There is a quote that I just love that one of the doctors used in his posts;  "The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is."  Our complaints about Versed/Midazolam are the truth.  Versed is a very bad drug.  You anesthesia nurses and others can attack me for saying it, your (willful) ignorance can cause you to deride me and others who tell the truth about Versed, but in the end, there it is.

There are a couple of reasons completely missing from the comments about NOT using Versed.  Those being, 1) THE PATIENTS DON'T WANT IT!  Nobody, not one person, mentioned the growing opposition to Versed by the patients themselves.   2) The growing body of evidence, empirical AND anecdotal, that Versed causes POCD and PTSD. 

BTW at last I have heard Versed being referred to as 'Vitamin V' again.  Until today, I've never heard Versed described thusly except by my crna when he wanted to conceal the name and true effects of the drug.  Here's the quote; 

"If you haven't given 10mg of Versed + .2 Mac of Gas... at least try it sometime for the experience. Pretty darn smooth. Especially when you are gowned up putting in lines and have your hands tied up. A lot of old timers do their inductions that way in the cardiac room.

Not my preference, but I've done it enough not to hate it, and still do it from time to time.

100 mcgs of sufenta and 5 mg of midaz usually gets me through a cardiac case. I see nothing inherently wrong with that. Usually 2 of Vitamin V in preop, 1 more once they hit the OR table before starting the a-line and the last 2 right after going on."
Italics, underlining and bold are mine. 

Look at the AMOUNT of Versed this person wants to use.  10 FREAKIN MG'S OF VERSED!  It makes my blood run cold.  The reason given is that it makes THEIR JOB easier.  "Pretty darn smooth."  Thanks a lot!  Destroy my brain and my life as I know it so that your anesthesia can be "pretty darn smooth." for you?  

"...there's nothing inherently wrong with that?"  (Using large amounts of Versed for no other reason than the 'smoothness' of their job)  Really?  Does your patients brain function after all that Versed matter at all, or are you solely interested in the surgery itself?  Does it bother this person that they may be sentencing their patient to a nursing home as a result of poisoning their brain with Versed, for no good reason?  Other than the issue of the selfishness of only considering the 'smoothness' of their job..

I also hope that the doctors reading that post do NOT "try it sometime for the experience."  Are you kidding me?  Subject your patients to a huge amount of risk for your own "experience?"  What the Hell?  Why would anybody need to "experience" what this is like, to damage your patient and gain experience poisoning them with Versed?  I'm glad this is not their "preference," but this kind of experimentation doesn't bode well for those of us who have been damaged by Versed...

Don't be discouraged when you read posts such as the above.  The thread was started by somebody who stopped using Versed years ago.  There are several that totally agree with this idea.  Anesthesia providers  are running out of excuses to use Versed.  This is a good thing.  The best of them are beginning to notice that Versed is over-used and abused.  Hopefully it won't take long before the smart ones override the ones who are desperately holding on to THEIR drug of choice, and start weaning them away from it.  It really is better for us not to have Versed...

Friday, November 16, 2012

Injectable Midazolam Shortage: What To Do?

I got an absolutely giddy e-mail from one of my Versed-sufferers about the Versed/Midazolam shortage.  I agree!  Happy days for those of us who have been (permanently?) harmed by this horrible drug.  The entire article is here;  Current Drug Shortage Bulletin: Midazolam Injections

Here's an excerpt;


Alternative Agents & Management

  • During this shortage, use alternative injectable benzodiazepines.
  • Consider midazolam oral syrup for pediatric patients. Typical doses of oral midazolam range from 0.25 mg/kg to 1 mg/kg in children 6 months to 15 years old. The onset of action following oral administration is 10 to 20 minutes.8
  • Ravitskiy et al9 evaluated midazolam 2 mg/mL oral syrup for the treatment of perioperative anxiety in healthy adults undergoing Mohs surgery. Midazolam 10 mg oral syrup was safe and effective in this study.9 Data evaluating midazolam oral syrup for use in adults in other settings are lacking.
  • There are no direct dosage conversions between the benzodiazepines because each has a distinct pharmacokinetic profile dictating the agent’s therapeutic use and dosing.
  • Lorazepam and diazepam injection are also on shortage.10
  • Institutions may consider reserving injectable benzodiazepines for initial treatment of status epilepticus, as no other well established injectable therapeutic options are available for this indication. Diazepam rectal gel may be an alternative for some patients.11-15

I especially like the third suggestion.  Just imagine our relief if medical workers can't SNEAK Midazolam into the IV!  Let's see how far they get asking us drink an unknown substance...  I'm thinking that this can force them to describe for us exactly what drinking some kind of poison will do for us.  Then we can refuse to drink it and THERE'S NOTHING THEY CAN DO!  At least for now competent adults have no need to fear numerous health care workers holding them down, clamping their noses and forcing them to drink.  Can you imagine the outrage? 

The last bullet point suggests "reserving injectable benzodiazepines for initial treatment of status epilepticus..."  I'm all for that!  I italicized 'initial' just for medical workers.  INITIAL treatment, not continuous infusion.  You guys do understand what "initial" treatment means don't you?  Isn't epilepsy CAUSED by brain damage?  Do people with epilepsy get even more brain damage from Versed?  Do they care?  Wouldn't the side effects from Versed make coping with epilepsy even worse?  Lots of questions for this one, BUT, as long as they stop damaging the rest of us, I'll live with it.

What is left out is this idea;  Learn to do your job without the amnesia and patient control drug Midazolam aka Versed.  People have been having acceptable surgical interventions well before amnesia became the pain management technique.  It's a piss poor substitution for pain relief anyway.  It's well past time that our overpaid, underworked anesthesia people started actually earning their living instead of simply turning people into vegetables, from which they may or may not recover. 

This is my opinion and nothing that medical workers can say will change it.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Elizabeth Bewley "Killer Cure"

I have written about a wonderful and easy to read book by Elizabeth Bewley some time back on this blog.  Everybody *I* know should have this book in their library.  Elizabeth is going to come out with a new book soon, which I also encourage my readers, whether they love me or hate me, to buy.  This includes YOU John and all the other medical professionals who don't like what you read here.  These books will give you a clue as to why that's so, in a manner which isn't as scalding as my tone is...

I'll put up the name of the new book as soon as I get permission...  In the meantime, re-read her first book "Killer Cure".

Thursday, November 8, 2012

The Election and Health Care

Well, the election is over and Obama has won.  That means that the abominable "Affordable Care Act" is here to stay.  Is there any reason why I should keep writing about Versed?  If the government decides that it's cheaper to simply 'sedate' people instead of giving expensive general anesthesia, or trying to alleviate pain then that's what we will get.  After all, even our allegedly 'educated' anesthesia people prefer this method.  They want to give you AMNESIA instead of pain relief.  They can just strap us down and go at it.  Nobody will care.  If you scream too much (hurts your 'caregivers' ears) or struggle too much (irritates the doctor) you will simply be jammed with more Versed until your brain is completely destroyed or you are dead. 

It isn't inconceivable to me if we don't have new questions on the intake.  Better check the 'minority' box.  Better check the 'democrat' box.  Don't say anything that could cause the health care workers to be careless with you.  I have nothing to tell seniors except "Don't go in for any tests and avoid medical care like the plague."  We as a nation are broke.  Our elected officials have claimed that they can pay down the national debt with the health care laws.  Ever wonder how they plan to do that?  THINK about what that means.  I don't need to draw you a picture, do I?  If you can read this post, then you are smart enough to figure out just HOW this can be done.

Good luck to all who need any kind of medical intervention.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Doug Jones; Anesthesia Side Effects

At last somebody has recognised the myriad problems with anesthesia. is even offering help if you live in the Colorado area.  Doug Jones has some very informative short videos and a pdf file which explains even more.  This is a must read for all of us Versed 'sufferers' and also for any open minded anesthesia types who want to know the real truth about all the 'harmless' drugs they give us...  You know, all those drugs like Versed which clear the system so fast and have no residual effects. (yeah right)  Doug Jones nails all the weird problems we have had since our 'incident' at the medical treatment centers.  He also explains why our oh-so-brilliant and ever-so-educated anesthesia people (and other medical types) are so blind as to the damage they are inflicting upon us!  Enjoy.

Anesthesia Side Effects

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Death From Anesthesia

Here's an interesting video about a hernia repair on a healthy young male patient which turned deadly due to anesthesia.  Unfortunately this video doesn't say WHICH anesthetic wasn't reversible, but my bet is on Versed.  Which other anesthetic is played with by anesthesia providers to the degree that Versed is?  You have probably all read about how 'safe' Versed is even in huge amounts.  Just go over to nurse-anesthesia and look at how they use this poison.  We all know that Propofol doesn't have a reversal agent.  The inhaled gasses, such as sevoflurane usually don't continue working after they are stopped.  The drugs to cause paralysis don't cause grogginess afterwards either.  That's why other drugs are used to cause a lapse of consciousness while paralytics are used.  You don't want chemically paralyzed patients cognizant of being paralyzed and aware of the surgery.  So my bet is on huge amounts of Versed to cause paralysis and amnesia.

Tim over at had his Versed experience due to hernia repair surgery.  I guess that he should be happy he survived the experience at all!  He survived with only problems with his Versed induced brain damage, or whatever this Versed thing is...

Here's the video;  Anesthesia Overdose During Hernia Repair- Patient Dies; NY Trial Attorney Gerry Oginski Explains - YouTube

We need WAY more information about what happened to this unfortunate individual.  It would be very helpful if we knew what the 'anesthesia' consisted of, the exact drugs and dosages.  We also need to know if this lawyer is using 'anesthesiologist' as a generic term to include crna's or 'anesthetists.'  The hospital where *I* went didn't understand that there is a difference between the terms and THEY work with this definition every single day.  I think this is deliberate, but that's another story.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Yet Another Rapist Utilizes Midazolam/Versed

Here are a couple of recent news reports on a man who used Versed to rape his babysitter.   How did he get this drug?  Well, some people DO get prescriptions for this drug.  Isn't that special?  The video claims that you can't get this drug at a pharmacy, but several people have responded to this blog and claimed that they absolutely do get Versed/Midazolam at the pharmacy.  They get it for seizure control.  Plus, on the video that I linked, one place the police did NOT investigate was the dentist's office.  How safe is this drug being kept in a dentist's office?  If the police have run out of medical places and people to investigate, maybe they better look and see if the rapist has a friend in the dental business...

Here's an L.A. Times article about this;  Man Accused Of Drugging, Raping Babysitter -

Here's the video about the Versed guy;  VIDEO: Norwalk Man Allegedly Drugs, Rapes Babysitter - David Begnaud reports --

Sunday, October 14, 2012

This is SUPPOSED to be an informed consent!

Here is yet another example of a so-called "informed" consent. 

I pulled this from this site:  Hysterectomy Information - Mercy Hospital's Medical Documents

 Here is a direct link to the document;

Even though it CLAIMS to be an informed consent, it isn't.  The law has some (cough) 'suggestions' about what MUST APPEAR in this document.  At least this particular document CLAIMS to be the 'informed consent' in bold letters at the top.  If the patient KNEW what was supposed to be contained in an informed consent, they would at least realize what this document was purporting to be...and be alarmed!  If you have perused mine, you will find that MY alleged 'informed consent' had that little tidbit of information in the bottom right corner in small type face.  Anyway, THIS so-called informed consent has the same vague gobbledygook (sp?) that mine had.  This item in NO WAY contains all the information required by law.  This INFORMED consent is actually nothing but a vague carte blanche and hold harmless agreement, just like mine was.  This consent is ILLEGAL!  It isn't a real consent at all.  How do these people get away with this kind of subversion of the law?

Reply From Allexperts

Here's a reply I got from Mike, crna.  I think this might be the same one I took to task for an article, since removed, he wrote about his srna days.  Too bad this is NOT the way it works in the real world.  I don't know how many times I have heard that if the patient doesn't want Versed, they won't get it!  Maybe it makes these guys seem more rational and normal to at least pay lip service to the idea that we can refuse Versed?  Other places (and in my own life) I find nurses arguing with patients and injecting them with Versed anyway.  I find nurses injecting Versed even after agreeing not to.  I find nurses implying that Versed was deemed 'necessary' for saving lives...  (what a crock)  Anyway here's the latest missive which claims that Versed won't be used.  I tend to believe this guy BTW, if only because of his previous encounters with me.  I have highlighted certain passages and added my comments.

Expert: Mike MacKinnon MSN CRNA
Subject: Versed/Midazolam
Date Asked: 2012-05-14 20:20:03
Date Answered: 2012-05-15 03:12:20

Mike, why do you think I got Versed for my axillary block?  I specifically said no drugs that would incapacitate me which would most certainly be Versed.  I have seen you mention that nearly everybody gets Versed...  Why would that be?  Everybody doesn't desire amnesia.  I don't understand WHY I need some nasty little drug like Versed even after I said no, for something like a nerve block.  I didn't get amnesia anyway, so was awake and watching my arm twitch etc.  You say that we can refuse this drug, but in practice it's far more difficult than you would you state.  I had a Beir block without any Versed or g/a the second time.  I'm trying to understand the unholy ZEAL that there is to use Versed.

Hi J-M

Let me first start by saying that if you as a patient ask not to have a specific drug then you simply shouldn't get it. (Thank you, that's what I want to hear!)

Now onto the question at hand!

I have done hundreds of blocks and I have done them with and without versed. When I talk to a patient I always tell them what I plan to give so that they can ask questions or let me know if they do not want it. Some patients are so incredibly anxious about having a needle placed that they cannot or will not be able to remain still when the block is being performed. These patients would be at serious risk for damage if they did not have some degree of sedation to calm them. However, if they did not want the sedation I would be fine with that and not do the block. Some patients are totally calm and when that is the case I do not give versed.  (I was totally calm, and I'm unafraid of needles.  In light of my declining ANY DRUGS WHICH WOULD INCAPACITATE ME, even if it was discovered that I needed a little something, why the Hell would they bring out a big gun like Versed?  Wouldn't a little Valium be enough?  I find that Fentanyl or Morphine tends to calm me down without the rest of the side effects of Versed.  Why can't I have that?  Wouldn't that be my choice to make?  I have offered my opinion that *I* would have been far happier if my bumbling crna HAD refused to treat me in the precise way I demanded!  I have no problem with people being honest with me and admitting that they are not comfortable with patients like myself.)Giving versed for blocks or before going back to the OR is a very common practice in anesthesia. This is because these events are anxiety provoking (not really) and often make the patient very uncomfortable. (I can live with uncomfortable, although after having 2 ORIF surgeries WITH a bone graft from my iliac crest for a snapped femur, I am understandably not too worried about stuff that happens in the OR, especially a stupid wrist surgery!)  While you mention amnesia the real use of versed is as an anxiolytic (decreases anxiety) (I didn't have any anxiety and for me this drug shot my anxiety level through the roof.  There is nothing like being unexpectedly rendered obedient and unable to speak after being very clear about this kind of thing NOT HAPPENING!  My blood pressure shot through the roof as well, so I'm having a hard time with all this "decreasing anxiety."  Quite the opposite.  Judging by the LIES my crna told about what happened to me, the real reason for Versed IS AMNESIA!  A simple drug like Valium can decrease anxiety without all the rest of it.)  and as you experienced not everyone gets amnesia from versed. (Oh but they TRIED!)  However, before I give anyone versed I tell them they may not remember (code speak for dense amnesia) going back to the OR and that it will calm their nerves (not true in my case and many, many others.  It doesn't calm the nerves at all, it's just that these patients CAN'T REMEMBER THE SHEER TERROR!  Their slack muscles prevent them from EXHIBITING terror.) if they were to ask not to get it I would not give it. (unusual Mike, truly unusual, but I believe you...)  To date I have never had a patient choose not to have versed though I wouldn't care either way as I only offer it for their comfort.  (I have problems believing this.  Clearly MOST people do not like the word AMNESIA.  I'm lucky I didn't stroke out in my chair when the lawsuit mitigation nurse told me that they tried to give me AMNESIA!Nobody *I* know would go for this.  Versed is waaaay too extreme a drug to give for mere 'patient comfort' in my opinion.)I cannot speak to every practice and how they interact with patients, only my own. In my practice I tell patients my plan, before i give each drug and answer any and all questions about the anesthetic experience before anything is given. It is just the right thing to do. I have had patients tell me they don't feel "right" after getting morphine and so i choose a different drug to take care of their pain. My job is to make the patient comfortable, meet their needs and respect their choices.  (I absolutely agree with this entire paragraph.  I only wish that this was true in general.  It isn't.  As an aside, I have a problem with Demerol.  How strange is it that I can refuse Demerol without any problems, but try to refuse Versed and it's world war 3?)

I hope this helps.


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Saturday, October 13, 2012

Radio Show Featuring Versed

Here is a link to a radio show done by one of my cyber friends who has been permanently harmed by Versed and the subsequent actions by her medical team.  WOW!  Thanks so much to the Versed sufferer who was brave enough and persistant enough to do this!!!

"LIFE" Radio Show 10/11 by LIFE Radio Show | Blog Talk Radio#.UHc9Acialfs.facebook

Thanks also to the interviewer who was brave enough to tackle this problem.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Arm Surgery Goes Wrong...

I have complained vigorously about my arm surgery which was an ORIF distal radius implant.  I complained about the Versed, the general anesthesia, the NURSE anesthetist, the lack of informed consent, to include the previous and some little items like NUMBNESS, additional surgeries, tendon damage, screws sticking out all over the place, right down to who the Hell performed the surgery.

Imagine my surprise (do you believe me?) when I found this link;   The surgeon said he could fix the injured arm. He had an odd definition of ‘fix.’ - The Washington Post  This person works in construction, was close to my age at time of surgery and has had nothing but trouble with HIS arm surgery.  Amazing.  He also complains about the lack of informed consent and the RUNAROUND he got trying to extract information from his doctor.  It's not just me, people.  This kind of thing is RAMPANT in our health care today. 

Here's where I found a link to the story:  Safe Patient Project (CUsafepatient) on Twitter  If you tweet and twitter, you should go over there and look through all the stuff.  I'll bet that you will find others complaining about the exact same thing YOU are!

Medicare Billing FRAUD Being Prosecuted

All you anesthesia nurses who are bragging all over the internet about how you 'suffer' no supervision and that the LAW about supervision is just a medicare billing ploy WATCH OUT!  Here's an article about medicare fraud...  $430 Million False Billing Medicare Fraud, 91 People Charged  Apparently one of the things that the government is going to spend the 'Affordable Care Act' monies on is an aggressive ENFORCEMENT policy.  I hope that somebody who reads my blog immediately runs to their supervisor and they start investigating this egregious breach of the law by anesthesia nurses! 

There are so many other laws that are routinely dismissed by arrogant medical people and their treatment centers that the FRAUD branch should be making a lot of money to help us patients defray the extreme COST of this so-called 'Affordable Care Act.'  I knew if I looked hard enough that there would be a few things I liked about this HORRIBLE piece of legislation forced on our population!  The ENFORCEMENT areas where our out-of-control medical people get caught with their hand in the taxpayers wallet may just work out well, at least until medical lobbyists get their way!  Go FBI, go Eric Holder, go HHS, go CMS!  We patients and we taxpayers (I belong to both groups) are sick and tired of being taken advantage of by the lawless medical community.  (You know who you are and I hope your time is running out!)

We don't want your expensive and disastrous sedation.  We don't like it, it harmed us and we don't want it used on us or any of our loved ones.  We don't want to pay the enormous charges involved in its use.  We don't want you people lying about it, and we don't want nurses working on us with Versed especially without the supervision required by law.  We are tired of the "informed consent' laws being violated with impunity.  We are tired of the "informed consent" being used as a hold harmless agreement.  We want ENFORCEMENT of all the laws pertaining to medical care.  ALL OF THEM!

In the future I would like to see every single complaint to all boards and medical facilities turned over to the FBI to be used in any investigation they may have in the future.  It needs to be set up like the CSA rules that we truck drivers have to put up with.  If this kind of law is good to use on commercial vehicles and their drivers, this template is good enough to use on medical treatment centers, hospitals and medical personnel.  Legislation set up like they did for us would go far to rein in excessive costs and would contribute to the safety of ALL people. 

For a quick peek, look here:  Registration & Licensing - Federal Motor Carrier Safety Administration  You can see the LAWS as it pertains to trucks.  You can look up any motor carrier by the number on the door of the cab.  You can see how many of their drivers are in violation, how many times the trucks  are inspected, the results of the inspections etc.  I HATE these new regulations, as we are already held to a higher standard and more supervision than medical workers.  I want to share the pain with medical entities.  Just imagine if we could look at something like this page in regards to hospitals and the like!  We could see the laws that pertain to medical care, results of any treatment center inspections, the laws that are broken, etc.  Something on this order would be good for our safety as patients.  I am urging my legislators to do something like this to the medical community.  If you agree, call all your elected officials and tell them in the interest of safety and savings, they need to do this.  We could call it the MCSSA (Medical Care Safety and Savings Act)

Thursday, October 4, 2012

National Security and Versed

In light of my previous post, I want to say something to all those people involved in government security.  I'm talking about military, ex-military, undercover cops, CIA, FBI, DOJ, the state department, anybody who works at the pentagon, area 51, the underground facilities at the Denver airport, the Stanford Linear Accelerator, Lockheed, the Lawrence Livermore Lab, etc. DON'T LET ANYBODY GIVE YOU VERSED/MIDAZOLAM!  (I deliberately left out TSA, they are worthless as far as I can tell.  Maybe medical workers can find out about all the stealing...)

I am serious about this.  Our medical workers are taking a very light hearted view of "extracting secrets" during "sedation."  I have long held that they are doing this, and it has been recently confirmed.  So much for my "paranoia!"  It isn't just sexual fantasies and other escapades they are privy to!  They are digging up information from the depths of peoples minds in an outrageous invasion of privacy.  I can hardly wait until I find something about the Gitmo 'detainees' being given Versed.  No wonder they found Bin Laden, huh?  State secrets could be blabbed about in a busy medical facility and who knows how many people would hear it.  Then they take it home and in a scandalized tone, tell their wife, husband, drinking buddies etc.  Next thing you know, it's all over the news.  People could get KILLED FOR THIS!!! 

I want to point out that I as an honorary member of the Dolphin Base,  I have enjoyed hobnobbing with (arguably) THE FINEST military men on the planet for about 30 years.  As General Shwarzkopf said during Desert Storm "We never discuss submarines."  Submarine deployment, capabilities etc are not for us to bandy about.  It's a serious matter of national security.  My submarine men would never willingly reveal certain things about what goes on with their boats.  Not even the WWII guys discuss where they went and what they did, if the brass said NO!  Some went to their graves with this information!  So what does it say about medical workers who use this brain poison on a daily basis on just about everybody who walks in order to access the contents of any one's mind?  Do you really think that they are all benign and are only looking for light entertainment?  What does all this mean for national security?

As I told the FBI when I turned in my medical treatment facility for medical FRAUD, do not let anybody near you with 'sedation' for any reason if you have any valuable information pertaining to state secrets.  You WILL BE COMPROMISED!  Ditto if you are an undercover police agent.  (among other things)Your cover will be blown, and possibly the wrong people will get wind of it.  If any medical people are dealing drugs on the side, they might be inclined to have you taken out.  This Versed could have disastrous consequences for our undercover forces. 

I am urging anybody who works with secrets to be very careful about medical treatment.  These medical minions can and will drug you and ferret out anything you don't wish to divulge.  You probably won't even remember it!  Their cavalier attitude towards this breach is shocking, and I truly believe that this is a national security issue.  Don't trust anybody with your compliant, uncensored, and amnestic mind.  Don't believe these people when they tell you Versed is only to relax you.  This is THE most diabolical drug ever invented and medical people want to use it ON YOU!  That way they can have unfettered access to the entire contents of your mind.  Can you imagine anything much worse?

Saturday, September 29, 2012

A Little Paragraph

Here's a little paragraph from a blog I like;  MD Whistleblower  As much as I like the blogger, sometimes I read something that is very scary.  Scary when I was LEAST expecting it.  Here's what he says about sedation.  We all know what 'sedation' he's talking about don't we?

"I recall a science teacher whose prior occupation was serving as a commander of a nuclear submarine. Even years later, his secrets remained tightly held, despite my gentle entreaties. He was, to borrow a phrase, a tomb of confidentiality. Perhaps, the sedation I would be administering prior to a future colonic violation might loosen his tongue. Oh, the secrets I've extracted in the endoscopy suite!  Relax, patients. What's uttered in the endoscopy suite, stays in the endoscopy suite, our own version of the Vegas Rules."

I don't know about you, but I am very alarmed and unhappy about this revelation, 'Vegas Rules' be damned.  This doc whom I previously liked and trusted just demolished my whole opinion of him.  This doctor looks hopefully towards 'sedating' his patient so as to extract secrets from him.  OMG this makes my skin crawl.  Then to go on and CROW about the secrets he's extracted in the endoscopy suite, this is just unconscionable.  Totally outside the realm of decent behavior.  "Relax, patients."  Are you freakin kidding me?  Who could be 'relaxed' (a word with evil connotations for me after my Versed debacle) with the idea that your friendly health care provider is going to seize the moment of your complete vulnerability to extract secrets for their own creepy curiosity? 

We have zero privacy anymore, not even in our thoughts and minds because medical people are doing things like this to us.  Versed should be banned.  How many 'secrets' have been compromised by unscrupulous medical workers like this guy.  This is horrifying.  This doc has NO RIGHT to deliberately access things which this poor man had no intentions of divulging.  Sickening.  You all know that this is part of what medical workers like about Versed.  They can knock out the censorship in a person with Versed and violate the sanctity of the patients mind.  It matters not to me what is done with the information, rather that such information is obtained in this sneaky, dare I say EVIL way.  NO EXCUSE for this kind of behavior. 

More Violent Patients...

Sometimes I read some whining crybaby type article about how mean patients are.  (sniff)  These patients are attacking us.  (boo hoo)  I'm here to tell you that I love posts about angry, physically violent patients who were assaulted with Versed without warning and without INFORMED consent!  I don't have one little shred of sympathy for the people who do this to us.  They deserve what they get, and more.  Once again I am warning medical types about what my reaction will be if they try to sneak Versed into me again.  I will respond just like the lady below...

(Anonymous) wrote:
Feb. 16th, 2012 06:01 pm (UTC)
"Lack of informed consent with Versed
I work in a large med-surg hospital that does lots of outpatient procedures and most if not all involve administering Versed (midazolam). Most clinicians tell the patient: "sign here so that we can give you something to keep you comfy" before administering Versed, when the truth is more like: "sign here so that we can give you Versed that will prevent you from remembering the procedure (at least immediately) and it will make you compliant; it has no pain-relieving properties, but don't worry, you probably won't be able to communicate but you will be quite "awake"..just sort of zombified. Don't be alarmed that the patient in the next room getting a colonoscopy is screaming in pain, we will get her out the door in a hurry and she won't realize that she was given an amnesia drug." One patient was lied to in the usual manner about the Versed that she was given; when she was told the truth about it being an amnesia drug she promptly smacked the endo doc right in the mouth...and the patient can't be held accountable since she was put "under the influence". Sorry, giving Versed without telling patients that it's purpose is to induce amnesia is unethical. I have seen way too many educated, reasonable and calm patients become furious after being given this amnestic drug without informed consent."
I love this sentence "One patient was lied to in the usual manner about the Versed that she was given; when she was told the truth about it being an amnesia drug she promptly smacked the endo doc right in the mouth...and the patient can't be held accountable since she was put "under the influence"."
OMG!  The patient was LIED TO IN THE USUAL MANNER about Versed.  LIED TO in a USUAL manner.  That says a lot about medical care and the people who populate these centers doesn't it?  She smacked the endo doc right in the mouth.  Dear Lord forgive me, but I can hardly contain my delighted laughter!  I will be doing the same, if at all possible.  As far as being "under the influence" yeah baby, I'll be using that one.  Will these medical people have the police shoot me dead because MEDICAL PEOPLE gave me a drug which I will always refuse, which is on my medical alert bracelet and in my wallet, not to use?  So I could actually end up dead because some fool wants to turn me into a compliant zombie, for their own selfish reasons?  At any rate, I won't be going to jail for the damage *I* do because I will be "under the influence".  I just hope they don't kill me for my response to their high handed illegal use of this drug.
As for the "I have seen too many educated, reasonable and calm patients become furious after being given this amnestic drug without informed consent."  That's exactly describing me and my experience.  Uncanny isn't it?  Medical workers will swear to their dying breath that Versed is universally beloved by their patients and zero side effects or untoward effects have been noted EVER in regard to this drug.  Yet we have this statement from 'anonymous' who is obviously in the health care field reporting these things to us...  So who is lying?  Anonymous and all of us who have been battered with Versed, or the (mentally compromised) medical people who are addicted to using Versed? 
PS once again I have to say that my thoughts here are my own opinions.  Yours may be different, but I have a complete RIGHT to speak out against the abuse we are suffering at the hands of those who are supposed to be helping us.  In fact it's a moral imperative. 

A Scientific Study: Benzo's Cause Dementia!

A fellow sufferer sent me an e-mail in reference to this article:  Anxiety Drug Use May Boost Dementia Risk (as much as 60%!!!)  So after all the screams and howls of denial from our lazy narcissistic medical drug pushers (did I leave anything out?) at last some medical people ADMIT that the use of benzo's for anxiety actually causes dementia later on.  Wonder why they even did a study on this?  Could it be that a few medical workers (the ones without the Versed lover addiction) NOTICED what we have been saying all along?  That Versed in particular, in this benzo class, is creating memory problems and unusual behavior? 

I am not a medical person.  I have never had any formal training in the medical or drug fields.  How is it that *I* and others like me that have had a severe reaction to Versed have arrived at the same conclusion that scientists (finally!) have?  It's because, unlike medical (ahem) professionals that have a BIAS that prevents them from using critical thinking in regards to Versed, we trust our own experience.  You know and *I* know that Versed caused unusual mental problems along the lines of PTSD.  We KNOW that this drug disrupted the orderly progression of our thoughts.  We KNOW that Versed created a heightened sense of danger and high anxiety in our previously mundane lives.  So why is it that those people responsible for injecting this poison have NEVER, EVER seen anybody react badly to Versed?  Hint: They have, they just can't accept the truth.  They don't WANT to deal with cognizant people, so they can and will destroy people's lives in order to make their own easier.  They have no shame.

Apparently none of these highly educated (so they say) medical folks have taken a step back from their Versed reliance and thought to themselves, "Say, all these patients can't be wrong!  I might be harming my patients by depending so heavily on this class of drugs!"  They don't appear to ever doubt themselves or to question medical dogma.  They seem to lack extrapolation skills, so necessary in most people's lives.  They truly cannot see that we patients are right, especially about their precious Versed?  What would cause this unenlightened, callous attitude in medical practitioners?  I can't fathom it.  For me, knowing that I was personally causing this much damage in the very people I was tasked with helping would send me into a depression. 

So for all you medical people who have been reviling me, ridiculing me, calling me names, threatening me with all manner of harm, both physical and financial, I am right!  I have been right all along about Versed.  I have arrived at the correct conclusion about Versed vis a vis dementia and Alzheimer's-like symptoms.  I was right all along!  And I'm not even a trained medical person.  How does that make you feel?  The dumb truck driver and all the rest of us productive members of society that you people have such disdain for ARE RIGHT!  You medical people are WRONG about the safety of Versed, the drug YOU can't live without!  How do you like me now? 

Medical people:  QUESTION the current thinking on Versed! (and the rest of the benzo's)  Use your mind!  Look at the evidence that is right before your eyes!  Medicine isn't a done deal.  It is always evolving and you need to evolve with it.  Especially with the brain poisoning drugs which you are now using.  NOBODY understands the brain, don't be so sanguine about destroying it with drugs.  Recognise how much you don't know.  Use your powers of observation.  Extrapolate!  Trust your own conclusions as they pertain to the idiotic medical reasoning shown by others.  Take a step outside the box, like the doctors in the link above.  Your patients are depending on you.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Versed and RAPE and TORTURE!

Take a look at this newspaper article.  Still want to tell me how wonderful medical people are and how this kind of thing COULD NEVER HAPPEN WITH VERSED?  Unbelievable, or at least it should be...  These women were SEDATED WITH VERSED AND THEN SEXUALLY ABUSED!  Both in the hospital and out of it.  I think this is just the tip of the iceberg.  I truly believe that this kind of thing is MUCH, MUCH more prevalent that medical professionals will lead us to believe.  Look how long this man was ALLOWED to get away with it.  How many victims were there?  The ones who got full amnesia will never know, now will they? 

Oregon Doctor Sentenced to 23 Years After Pleading Guilty to Rape and Sex Abuse

Dr. Frederick Field is off to prison for the ultimate breach of trust~ what's next for his victims?
Dr Fred Field
Dr Fred Field pleaded guilty to rape and sex abuse in Wasco County court on Sept 18.
Still Photography by Willie Hayward,

(THE DALLES, Ore) - Dr. Frederick Field now will be known as one of Oregon’s most notorious serial sex offenders. The bad doctor pleaded guilty to 11 counts of first-degree sex abuse and one count of first-degree rape in the Wasco County court last Tuesday.
This was a change in plea which came after lengthy negotiations between the district attorney and Field's lawyer. 47-year old Frederick George Field was sentenced to 276 months in prison (23 years), based on Measure 11 guidelines.
For five years, Field, an anesthesiologist, worked at the main hospital in The Dalles, the Mid-Columbia Medical Center (MCMC).
Frederick George Field obtained his license to practice in Oregon in 2005. He earned his medical degree at Tulane University School of Medicine in 1998 and completed residency training in internal medicine and anesthesiology at Brown University in Providence, R.I.; he is currently married, and has two young children.
He was first indicted by a Wasco County grand jury and accused of abusing two patients. He was arrested July 28, 2011, and charged in August with rape and felony sexual abuse. He was held on more than $1 million bond.
Field's mugshot taken within hours of court.
The allegations began with two victims but quickly became more. Soon he was charged with sexually abusing seven women; six patients and one hospital employee, revealing that they were incapacitated by drugs when they were assaulted.
Then, the Oregon Medical Board suspended his license while the investigation was underway. The OMB had no record of disciplinary actions or malpractice claims against Dr Field prior to these sexual assault charges.

Whistleblower Victims Speak Out

A 66-year-old woman filed suit against Mid-Columbia Medical Center in August 2011 shedding more light on the sordid situation. She had undergone surgery in February 2011, conducted by Field.
"As soon as she was able to speak, she told her surgeon that Dr. Field had forced her to touch him sexually during the surgery. Dr. Field denied the allegations, and said that [she] had been hallucinating under the effect of the anesthetic," stated Kafoury & McDougal, the Portland law firm that represented the woman, on their website.
The woman said she took her concerns to hospital management but they did not take her seriously. Hospital officials disagree. They say when the patient first told them about the sexual abuse in May, they immediately notified The Dalles Police Department.
Richard Baltus, spokesman for Mid-Columbia Medical Center, said the hospital "took every precaution to ensure Dr. Field was not in a position to compromise patient safety and was never in a room alone with a patient."
The last known case of sexual abuse took place on July 24, over two months later. It wasn’t against a patient this time; instead he abused a female employee.
And what of the Oregon Health Authority? Were they apprised of the imminent risk to patients? The OHA is "the organization at the forefront of lowering and containing costs, improving quality and increasing access to health care in order to improve the lifelong health of Oregonians". This case is an example of when their guidance would have been especially helpful to patients in Oregon.
MCMC reportedly reaps $100 million a year from their vast healthcare empire; that is a lot to protect, but at what cost?
By sentencing last Tuesday, twelve victims had come forward, including co-workers, who said they were abused by Field between 2007 – 2011, and joined the cause to find justice.
According to reports, some of the victims said they awoke as Field touched them, and some had convinced themselves that their memories were dreams until the doctor was arrested.
Wasco County Chief Deputy District Attorney Leslie Wolf said the victims who were sedated by Field for surgery or other medical problems and then touched inappropriately. Six of Field's accusers say he touched their genitals or breasts, or forced them to touch his genitals, and one woman said Field forced her to have sexual intercourse in 2008.
In the cases involving co-workers, Field “asked if they wanted medication to ease a headache or some other ailment. He then took them into a room and administered medication that incapacitated them before they were abused,” Prosecutors said.
There are several drugs that would have been accessible to Field. Versed
, a common drug by Anesthesiologists, is well known to induce amnesia, especially retrograde amnesia. It's very useful especially for painful procedures as the patient might be conscious at the time of the pain but not remember anything later.
As an Anesthesiologist, Fred Field had not only access to this drug and others, but also the expertise to use it to his advantage.

Who Knew and When? Adding Insult to Injury.

All of the crimes did not take place at the hospital itself. The admitted rapist allegedly took at least one of his victims to a house owned by the hospital foundation, used by visiting doctors and those on call. In Afghanistan, the Taliban and Russian soldiers were well known to use “rape rooms” as part of their torture of the locals. Being drugged and trapped with a rapist behind closed doors in The Dalles, Oregon, is no less torture.
809 Union Street in The Dalles is leased to MCMC for use as a "call house", and may be an integral piece of the puzzle as the investigation into the possible cover up of Dr Field's crimes continues.
The one rape victim in this case so far was a nurse working at Mid-Columbia Medical Center and lived about an hour away. She thought their anesthesiologist and her co-worker, Dr Field, was a trusted friend when she asked him for something to relieve her of a bad headache. When she "came to", Fred Field was on top of her - raping her on a couch in that MCMC leased call house on Union Street. Oregon State police DNA tested semen found on the MCMC "rape house" couch and it was identified as that of Dr. Field, likely contributing to his change in plea to guilty.
Field did not speak in court except to admit guilt to the charges against him at the hearing presided over by Judge Paul Crowley, but several of his victims did. Field stared forward, not reacting to their pleas for his remorse, not showing any sign that he even cared what they had to say.
"How could this happen?” One victim asked. “How could this man damage other women's lives ... how is it possible that this was allowed to happen?"
“You will be as powerless as I was once,” another victim said. “Your crimes can only have come from an unimaginable void within the moral fabric that exists within the rest of us; you have none. I hope I can someday find a way to forgive you; not because you deserve it but because I do.”
“What was really disappointing is that the doctor made no statement, and he made no effort to acknowledge what he had done to the women that had not been the subject of indictments and it shows what an unregenerate man he is,” said attorney Greg Kafoury.
“I think they were all offended at the fact that the man wouldn’t speak, they wanted to hear something.
“He is a coward. He wouldn’t stand up and say it, he talked through his lawyer. If there was ever a time for someone to stand up and say they were sorry, and to acknowledge what they had done, this would be the time to do it,” Kafoury said.
Whether or not there are additional victims remains to be seen. Kafoury is convinced there are more.
“I think there are women out there who have a story to tell, who are reluctant to step forward. If there are women who believe he should serve even longer, and they know what he did to them, they need to search their consciences and find the courage to do what these other women have done."
The civil trial is expected to begin in about a year, and Kafoury’s law team is seeking $14 million or more in damages from the hospital for pain and suffering on behalf of his clients.
Hospital administrators were allegedly advised of Field’s criminal behavior in 2008, but failed to act. The next three years put many other women in the position of being victimized by Dr Field. The Oregon Medical Board waited until after his arrest to take action. Why?
Dr Field had access to unconscious female patients every single day. It is possible that in the years he was at MCMC he committed far more sex abuse crimes than the 20 or so times described in this case.
In this rural Oregon town of 16,000 on the banks of the Columbia River famous for its fruits, wheat and wines, people in the know have been afraid to speak up, even when their wives, mothers or even grandmothers are being raped and sexually assaulted. Intimidation comes in many forms, and it must be removed as a factor once and for all in Wasco County.

Motherly Love

Joan Field, the convicted doctor’s mother, told that her son “didn’t rape anyone”, and that the charges have more to do with money than truth.
“It was a consensual affair, it occurred twice in two different places; once in her apartment and once in the hospital. It was a consensual affair, it was not rape. She is a very good actress.”
When asked if she had anything to say to the many women victimized by her son, Ms Field shook her head and said, “I don’t think there were many. I think there was only one, I think it was Allen. I think all the rest were...otherwise.”
“There is a lot of money involved here, and I think a lot of people are in it for the money. I’m sorry.”
She also does not believe it was possible for him to get a fair trial in Wasco County. According to Joan Field, a survey was conducted to determine what percentage of citizens in the county were aware of the proceedings against Frederick Field. Of the 1000 people polled, 80% were aware of the case, and 65% believed him to be guilty before the trial.
Frederick Field did not receive a change of venue to another county based on that information.

Complicity Can Be Criminal

By most accounts, The Dalles is an unpretentious, unsuspecting, “salt of the earth” rural community. The people that call The Dalles “home” have a good quality of life. They trust their friends, neighbors, and especially their doctors. In many cases, for generations.
This case is a serious affront to all area citizens that work to keep their city an honorable place to live. That may be the reason that this story has been kept strangely quiet.
A Letter to the Editor signed by several The Dalles community members expressed outrage at the lack of public outcry. “Our community has its own Penn State scandal going on,” they wrote.
“Why is the Hospital Board sitting on its hands? This scandal is a blight on our whole community. It makes us all look bad. Let’s put our support behind the victims, not those who allegedly let it happen.
“It seems to us that having the CEO of the hospital being a member of the board is an exercise in futility if the board’s true purpose is to police the hospital. How can they possibly be objective?” The letter asked.
Greg Kafoury said, “The hospital is in a bunker. All of its administrators are in a bunker, they talk through counsel and we’re going to pry the lid off the bunker and we’re going to make them all talk under oath and produce every document. We promised today, to this community, that they would have a trial and those who knew about what this man was doing, all those who concealed it will have to face the community under oath in a courtroom.”
Duane Francis, chief executive officer for the medical center, did not attend the court proceedings and he opted to have a spokesperson answer our questions. Richard Baltus, Director of Public Relations and Marketing spoke to via telephone exclusively after the sentencing.
He said, “In general we are pleased that the criminal proceedings against Dr Field have come to an end with the result appropriate for the despicable nature of his crimes, but also spares his victims from having to relive them in court.”
When asked if he expected more victims to come forward, he said, “We certainly have not heard of any. It appears to be the end of it, from the criminal standpoint.”
I asked him what he would say to the women of Wasco County to give them the confidence that the Medical Center is a safe place to be, and is watching out for their best interests?
“We have reviewed every single one of our policies in regard to patient safety to ensure that we are continuing to provide the safest possible environment for our patients and I’m confident that we are.
“This was a single individual determined to do harm, and certainly our hearts go out to his victims but his despicable actions don’t define our organization or what we’re all about. We are confident we’ve always had the right safety measures in place; he was just determined to do harm. (taps table) Sometimes there’s not anything you can do about that.”
“Have all the cases that Dr Field has worked on been reviewed?” I asked.
“No. I can’t answer that,” Baltus said.
Regarding the timeliness of the hospital’s report to the police when they knew of the accusations, Baltus said, “As soon as we had the information we could to go to the police, we immediately went to the police with that. I really can’t elaborate on that, but it’s certainly not a case of us ignoring accusations, ever.
“We have been providing care at the main hospital since 1959, and this is the first incident of anything like this ever happening.
“MCMC is not some giant, faceless corporation. It’s the largest employer in town, and as such it’s a microcosm of this community so we’re confident when people put a face on MCMC it’s the face of their neighbor or friend or family member, it’s not going to be the face of Fred Field.”

Oregon State Prison for Twenty-Three Years

Field will not be eligible for early parole, and when he leaves prison in over twenty years, he will have to register as a sex offender according to Wasco County Chief Deputy District Attorney Leslie Wolf.
She said that Field will also pay fines and assessments, and restitution of $5,308.02 for counseling expenses for five of his victims. A request to give Field's posted bail money to victims was denied by the judge.
Field is led away in cuffs.
"He's on Measure 11 time, so he's not eligible for any early release programs. He will have to register as a sex offender, and will have no contact with any of the victims and their families."
“I think the guilty plea was important to the victims to hear that he was accepting accountability and responsibility for the acts that he did to them.
“This is the time this community needs to start healing. Fred Field is the one that did these actions to these women, these women were completely vulnerable, they did nothing wrong. We ask the community to remember that, and to start respecting and having compassion for them and their families at this time,” Wolf said.
There are many more victims who may be suffering in silence and some whose memory of the abuse may have been wiped out by the sexual predator, using his knowledge, expertise and socioeconomic status to prey on his victims.
The victims of these crimes are not limited to those who physically had hands put upon them, as these events have changed the lives of everyone involved forever, including the families, friends and coworkers of every victim. The impact is like a pebble in a pond, the ripples go on and on.
When all was said and done, Stephen Houze, the Portland attorney representing Field made a plea to the victims, community members, the judge and prosecutor.
“He’s a human being; he’s not a monster,” said Houze, in court. “He’s a man who has contributed significantly in his life to the welfare of others. He is a husband and the loving father of two children with elderly parents who will live out their lives before he is free. I think it’s important to bear in mind that criminal cases, criminal justice, involves a number of victims.”
Dr Frederick Field put
Stay tuned to as this investigation continues. The Dr Fred Field story is not nearly finished.

Video produced by Bonnie King,
Photography by Sean King
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Sunday, September 23, 2012

Well Written E-mail From a Reader

"Remember, I am no medical authority, and information is hidden from us patients, so listen to your doctor, but here goes with my opinions.
Over 30 years ago, as part of a job I had in a JCAHO (then JCAH) accredited hospital, I was tasked to convince people to undergo surgery. I worked closely with the medical staff, surgeons,  nurses, technicians, etc. We always arranged for informed consent. Our mantra for explaining such procedures was that if we told you you were going to be helped by an arm operation we also had to let you know that there was perhaps an 8% chance that you would die or a 12% chance your arm would fall off. We also informed them about pain. It is disturbing that I received none of that before or at my recent colonoscopy.
What would I tell people now? It appears that anesthesia has changed since 'my day'. Putting you out was always dangerous. The doctor or nurse (we used to call them 'gas passers' as they used gas) had to be skillful, but they put you out for many big procedures. They also gave you tranquilizing drugs like Valium (diazepam) if you were not to be put totally out, to relax you. 
It appears that has changed. Instead of putting you to sleep they block pain in various areas, more often perhaps then they did in the past.  But the real change is that they use certain drugs deliberately so you will not remember what they did, specifically midazolam AKA Versed and Propofol (Propofol's nickname is Milk of Amnesia). To repeat, they use these drugs specifically because the wipe you memory of ‘the procedure.’
 For example, as far as I can tell, colonoscopies are always painful, either a little, or moderate, or a lot. They can give you pain medications, but if they do, how much, who knows and who remembers, as there is no recording or independent monitoring of these ‘procedures.’ And the drugs they use for ‘twilight sedation’ appear to be chosen because they wipe your memory of what they did, as well as to incapacitate you from resisting as opposed to being out of pain.  It also seems that Versed (Midazolam) does not wipe the memory of some people (like perhaps you) and they remember what happened. Do you feel pain if your memory of it is erased? I think you do. How did you feel lying there perhaps in great pain, following their commands or trying to fight them, enduring it, yet knowing this memory would probably all or partially be wiped out, or would it come back to you some night? Some people therefore refuse to be ‘sedated’ for colonoscopies. It appears that this forces the medical people to give adequate pain medication and to treat you well as you will remember it.
One of the Law and Order Special Victims shows features versed in an episode wherein the criminal assaults a woman who cannot then fight back, and dies I think, or could not remember it enough to testify. Star Trek Enterprise has an episode called twilight that addresses issues of having one’s memory erased.
I was lucky with my endoscopist, a GI doctor with decades of experience. It was done at the office but an anesthesiologist was present, and I had Propofol. Propofol is better I think. President Bush II had it. (Obama had a virtual). I have had no psychological problems. I have not found the complaints on the web about Propofol that I see about versed. I have read it is very painful going in, but all I remember is something going into my arm and then being asked to dress and leave.
You really are at the mercy of the practitioner. There is so much profit that the general practitioners have been approved to do it. The insurance companies do not want to pay the extra costs for propofol, which can mostly put you out (it worked for Michael Jackson, mostly), and for which some states require the presence of an anesthesiologist.
And the better choice seems to be a hospital or surgical center as they would have the better pain meds and CRNA and anesthesiologist services to give you propofol like Bush II got, i.e. Milk of Amnesia, with real anesthesia possibility and instant sick free wake up. And a less private place where rumors might start as they see many clinicians.
Some of my favorite references: From the wonderful Center for medical consumers
A spectacular site that does not appear to be always updated, but has terrific information on colonoscopies and other stuff
“let’s think about the setting and your frame of mind when you arrive for a procedure. First of all, … the colonoscopy preparation procedure requires fasting as well as hours spent in the restroom so that one’s bowels are clean. Then, you generally either have to get up at the crack of dawn or well before dawn depending upon where you live, the traffic, and the time of your procedure, and finally when you arrive exhausted at the hospital or surgery center, you are then checked in, placed in a room, told to remove all your clothes, and put one of those very attractive hospital gowns on, and asked to sign a multitude of papers. Your glasses and personal belongings may even have been removed so that you are signing papers which you can’t even see, but in your tired and hungry state you may be so focused on getting out of the hospital that you’re not too concerned about what you are being given or the documents you are signing. The next step after you’ve handed over your glasses, stripped out of your clothes, and are possibly nervously awaiting your procedure, is that you will probably be approached by a nurse who comes in with a huge smile and pokes you in the arm to start your IV. You are probably then approached by either the same smiling staff member or another member of your medical team with an equally large grin that you will be “given something to relax”. Not one to want to ruffle any feathers and certainly wanting to be a  “good patient” you probably simply say “ok” and may be totally oblivious to what happens next. 
It’s primary use is that of an amnesiac drug, or a drug that will cause you to forget. What many patients are not aware of is that if you are given Versed it does not necessarily mean that you will not have pain, but it may cause you to forget pain.”
How about the Mayo clinic: “Midazolam is used to produce sleepiness or drowsiness and to relieve anxiety before surgery or certain procedures. Midazolam is also given to produce amnesia (loss of memory) so that the patient will not remember any discomfort or undesirable effects that may occur after a surgery or procedure .
“The most common drugs used in date rape …include … Midazolam…  See also Law and Order special victims season 5 episode 5 The episode is entitled "Serendipity.”
From the US National Library of Medicine: “Midazolam is given to children before medical procedures or before anesthesia for surgery to cause drowsiness, relieve anxiety, and prevent any memory of the event.” /
“We conclude that midazolam, given in small incremental doses, in combination with meperidine, produces effective conscious sedation for colonoscopy and exceeds diazepam in its amnestic effect”.
For fun, watch Dr. Oz’s colonoscopy, the second or third video if it is still up. He does not appear to be having a good time. He thought about it all summer I think. And he did not follow up as ordered until much later. Now he, I am told, is an enthusiastic proponent of the procedure.
From a blog, almost an exact quote: ‘While it is true that versed and fentanyl are common and acceptable drugs for outpatient GI procedures these drugs are not as effective as propofol. Additionally, these drugs are generally given by an RN who does not have training in anesthesia as a Nurse Anesthetist or Anesthesiologist would. This limits how far they can go in dosing which is likely what happened with your neighbor. Having said that, many people have GI procedures daily with versed and fentanyl without incident. It is rare to have a patient crying and screaming with these drugs. So the answer is that yes there is a risk of under-sedation with any drug but the risk is much lower when you have a nurse anesthetist giving you propofol.’ Mike MacKinnon MSN CRNA
This shows you are fully awake. FULLY AWAKE!!!  “Under procedural sedation, you remain fully awake and can respond to questions and instructions. … You typically won't remember the procedure or the short period of time following it.”
I have removed salutations from this letter and corrected the spelling of one word.  Otherwise this e-mail is exactly as I received it.